6_dead_bullets (6_dead_bullets) wrote,
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Well, Again in the Same Path...

So I'm sitting here in complete darkness... Hoping that my dad wont come in and tell me to go to sleep... I got somethings to finish... I stayed up and dedicated this night for just writing music... So far its going good... I got a lot down and it sounds good...

I just took a break, for a bit to reflect on a couple things... Get something written down and sort my mind a little bit...


Its 5:30 in the morning and I don't have any sign or hint of sleepiness, heh, My mind is too scattered, to just sleep it all off... 

I figured out that, my mind works really... Fucked up... Some times I feel the world couldn't be a better place, and other times I feel like shutting my self out to the rest of the world, and crawling into a ball and rotting away... What the hell is wrong with me..? 

My friends no longer know I exist, the band I thought, was going to be something big has run off with another band, (which is pretty much combineding all of the friends, that I know! so no room for me...) I have about 50 or 60 days left of school, then getting a job to get money, to get a car, to get around, to go DO the rest of college, and then after that I don't know how the FUCK I'm going to start making an album or doing shows with no one on my side... (well our side, including franky) but even so we don't have the rest of A BAND...


I don't know what to do anymore... When I figured that part of my crazy mind, I haven't felt like I wanted to turn into a ball and die, but with all this happening... It just seems like I have to feel that way...


I don't know why every things gone crazy... I've lost pretty much all of my family, for no fucking apparent reason... 




I'm gonna have to figure this one out on my own... It might seem cruel, but she just complicates things... I got no one on my side for this little obstacle... But some how I feel as though this might be partly her fault... Jealousy, and selfishness, has taken its toll...?


Is it because of her, they have kept their distance? Is it because of them shes jealous? If it is... That's pretty selfish..


I'm not going to blame... I just need to let some things go and show them anger...


My Break time is up and I am going back to doing what I love... 

Good Night And Sweet Dreams
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